The Drafts Folder was suppose to help me…

But all it is doing is causing me to think too hard.  I have these great ideas for blog posts, so in an effort to not forget them I start a draft and just leave it there.  Then I assume that hours later (well days or weeks later) I will reopen my nugget of thought and be inspired to continue the thought and bring it to its natural conclusion.  BUT THIS NEVER WORKS OUT THIS WAY!!! Why is that?  Why do I think this idea I am having is so great and connected to what I am feeling or so profound that I must just write my thoughts on it out there for the world to see?  But then I do nothing with it. 

I am even sitting here in the grand outdoors, soaking in all the great nature (some days Oregon can just NOT be beat when it comes to trees, greenery, and peace and quiet) and figured this was the most PERFECT time to drag out those drafts and make them into actual BLOG posts.  And even now I am stuck staring at them going, what was I trying to say there?  Why am I not feeling INSPIRED to write about that now?  Maybe it’s a mood thing.  Maybe I need to realize that not all great thoughts will turn into blog posts. 

Maybe I need a new location for these supposed GREAT ideas because right now they just seem to be LOOMING To Do items.  You know the ones, like the unread emails that sit in your inbox bolded, begging for your attention.  You have the intention of reading them WHEN YOU GET SOME TIME, but they are not high priority.  So there they sit, but the number of BOLDED items ALSO sits in your inbox reminding you of all the things you haven’t done YET. 

So it becomes this new and pressing NEED to cross off the list, or get DONE so that it doesn’t bother you anymore.  Well at least that is what it does to me.  I have worked very hard to attempt to change the wiring my thinking to either get the items read, deleted, or JUST IGNORE THEM until you want to read them.  But that just doesn’t seem to work as well as I want it to.  Why is that? 

Have I been so conditioned to get my “chores” done so that I can play, that I cannot seem to walk by a SOMETHING that needs doing and NOT do it?  Or I can’t just let it be.  You know that box that needs to go in the garage? Or that dirty part of the door that needs to be cleaned? Or the pile of clothes in the corner that just need to be put in a bag to take to goodwill?  I mean my home is FULL of these LITTLE things and not all are my responsibility to fix.  And not all of them need DOING right now or EVER, but there is this nagging feeling in the back of my mind every time I see them.  It seems to get added to this giant pile of obligations I have on my plate or even on my actual physical To Do list.  

But I find that if I stop what I am doing and do those little things I become a little ADD or ADHD (whatever the easily distractible one is) and I have a dozen things started at once.  Cookies baking, dishes soaking, iTunes updating, email reading, counter wash rag waiting, plant watering pitcher needed, phone text reading, and television show watching.  That is just the ones I remember starting. 

Now what was I working on again?  Oh yeah that drafts folder…


Simple Cookbook Project – Or so I thought

It seemed like such a good idea at the time… How many projects have you started with that thought in mind?  How many seemingly innocent brainstorms have resulted in just another item on the To Do list that never ends?  Well I did it to myself.  Just like the audio tapes that needed converting, the scrapbooks that need building, and the beads the need necklacing (is that a word?); I have generated another project that needs doing.  So in the last 2 days I have spent at least a few hours–I think I’m up to 6 hrs–making my life easier.  Or at least so that is what I was telling myself. 

My Little Cookbook Project

I have this collection of random recipes from my mother, grandmother, father, online cookbooks, friend recipes, cards, and post-its of some of the greatest meals of my memories.  Then there are the cookbooks.  There were at least a dozen last time I moved that filled my book shelf.  And as much as I love just LOVE to dust things that never move (NOT), I was looking at some of these asking myself how long was I going to be toting around these MASSIVE paper weights?  Then the final logic behind this project TRI-FECA was the frustration I go through every time I want to look to create some thing DIFFERENT in the kitchen.  Or Heaven forbid I want to create something I have done before, but CAN’T SEEM TO FIND THE RECIPE ANYWHERE!?!?!??!?!

So the idea began to be crafted, dissected, and created.  Why not create one binder filled with ALL my recipes from EVERYWHERE, printed on card stock or put in those plastic cover thingys, and then put them into dividers in ONE GIANT (okay maybe 2) binders to be kept in my kitchen.  So there it was.  Convenience , consolidation, and creativity all in one.  What a great idea. RIGHT?

That is until I have started this project like 6 times only to arrive at an impasse, have to grown over technical difficulties, lack of resources, or finally a moment of perfectionistic dissatisfaction with my ability to cut straight or align things uncrookedly.  So yesterday in blissful ignorance I begin again.  I am actually quite proud of my efforts, until I look up and realize it is 12:50am and I should TOTALLY be asleep now.  Dang IT… why does the clock always bring me such bad news.  But after about an hour of packing things up and reorganizing my steps so I didn’t leave the living room a complete disaster; I find sleep. 

Today I begin again, cutting and sorting and copying and making a TEENY TINY bit of progress, only to reach a snag.  The ink looks like it is out in my printer.  Of course this is after I have taken at least 5 times to get the alignment correct between the hole punched paper and right side up on both sides.  So I do what any good printer owner does… I remove the ink cartridge and shake like CRAZY, please just a few more copies, PLEASE!!! I don’t have time to go to Office Supplies R us tonight OH and they are probably closed at 8pm on and SUNDAY.  Dang IT… AGAIN! 

So I try to figure out what to do next to make progress and I am now at a kind of loss as I do not think I can continue down this process when I realize there are FANCY settings on the printer itself, so I test and retest and move things from color to not color and realign the pages etc, etc.   Anyone feeling me yet?  This project seemed like such an easy task.  Such a great way to make my life EASIER, RIGHT?  Now I seem to be knee deep into chaos and technological frustration; all for what?  SO I better be testing some of these recipes out soon, because if I end up having to dust this THING once I’m done, I am seriously SERIOUSLY gonna christen my new BBQ Grill with a Bonfire. 

I mean WHO wants to be reminded of hours and hours of effort and work that results in a waste if not used.  Anyone else gotten a crazy idea that just seems to turn into a time sucking project that never ends?